when even Hong Ki couldn't help me out in this situation
i realise i went in too deep that i didn't know i am alrd %*)$%*)


chong lai mei xiang guo , hui tong dao ze ge di pu


goin out later..

will edit..

hey here , i am back , like i said .. i will edit again ..
i am nt sure this would be a long or a short post ..
i just post as much as i could ...

3 dec [ thrus ]
went sch , somehow was rotting though ...
in comp lab , we see Koizora movie , wit my cd
i tot , i would be able to control de tears while see-ing it
but despite my confidence , i still tear abit when i see
HiRO died ....
sch ended early ... quite early...
aft that, we went to punggol to play badminton
and then we talk n rot till night...

ytd - 4 dec ..
it just pass nt long ago ,
i guess all i need is to post what i could still rmb
met up sm n syafiq at interchange at 1 ..
i was late ,... becoz of the weather..
reach marina parade , des n sam were alrd there..
guess they waited quite long ? especially sam ...
off we went to hawer center .. they ate and headed to ECP
meet eliza there while waiting de bowling lane to be avaible..
wasn't able to concentrate on de bowling though ..
so really didn't bothered much abt the scores..
then off we went to seafood place to eat dinner ...
walked ahead of everyone else ... leaving de 3 behind talkin ..
n de other 2 hu tried to nt to be "lightbulb" ... T.T
lookin at the sea , my mind was relax again ...
weather turn bad while walkin , rain fall heavily..
though gt umbrella , but yea of coz i didn't use it..
reason was clear enough ... i wanted to get drench in de rain ..
de rain wash away it all for me ....
and maybe i wan to sick again .. sicko right me ..LOL
reached de place earlier than eliza n sam ...
saw their figure running into shelter nt far away from us...
volunteer to pass them umbrella..
LOL.. yes , i was drench back again ...
didn't eat , wasn't hungry at then ...
aft that off we went to pool place , while walkin ...
maybe somehow or somewhere .. things got abit complicated..
i look at sea .. and de sky ... and definitely it help me to
get so much calmer in mind ...
went pool , had fun with them ..
except de part where they say i Like " changmin " dots..
no way man ...
dono why , i felt unwanted today


tml goin oout again , wa.. outing again ..
i guess i just need to try to reach home tml as early as possible
hmmm , to avoid naggings n scoldings lerx..
been having sleepless night for quite a number of days..
been thinkin , maybe i shld do what i did last time..
take sleepin pills ...


i am not lookin foward to sch attachment nor graducation
attachment will be alone , no one to be depend on ...
graducation is de day we will be goin on our seperate way n of coz ..
grad nite ... i hate it ..and wasn't thinkin to attend it though ..
shld i ? LOLs

i hurt becoz of de lies
i hurt becoz i dono de truth ..

The truth may hurt but it's those lies that kill



i am signing off, reflect on myself now ...

hong ki,u're my only way
let me get out of de trap as soon as possible..