yesterday indeed wasn't in good mood
today is bett i guess ..yea .. probably

frid gt presentation n test ..
kind of stress. .. really ..
especially for presentation
even can read from script .. it won help me much
unable to overcome de fear so long
now , just 2 days , even mission impossible ...

today i get my message from god again
it's just daily rountine for me actually ,
to get a message each time when i log in facebook
today message is super accurate ..
it is probably de most meaningful message this week ..
even though i nt sure if this is set up in real or fake
but i treat every message a real message ..
so thus this message i got for ..
struck directly at my heart

On this day of your life, Min, we believe God wants you to know... ...
that humans learn only by trial and error, and that includes you.

You've got to live life, not think about it. Step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again. The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive

haven been living a real life these few months
just like partly of my soul fly away ...
basically - one word , i am indeed avoiding , avoiding everything
everythin is nt wad i wanted...
lookin for somethin that make me hav strength to go onn
first is f.t island
now is harry potter
later ? wad is my motivation ..

ytd house in chaos again ,
hate to see mum feel so upset
want to really study hard for mum ,
but don hav de heart
de chaos ... it drag too long
again, tryin to avoid all these ...

too complicated ..
so much of a good life i having




if hav to be so complicated..
i rather live in my dream